My AA sponsor Gordon Emberger, gentleman, gave me this assignment to help with my sobriety. My NA sponsor Peter from Brooklyn, NY in spirit approved and thought something like if you don’t think unseen communication is possible, Robert and I do too. Don’t think too hard, you get it. It is possible or it is possible? It is to help stay clean and sober.
Dear You,
My name is Robert. I have a son Brandon. His Mother passed away over 3 years ago. I don’t know what to do but give him time and space and be there for him if he needs me. What else is there to do? Like I already said, I don’t know. He seems happy as always, so I hope it is helping.
I am diagnosed and a permanently disabled schizophrenic. I have been on and off medicine and in and out of mental institutions. Lately (the last 10 years), I have taken my medication religiously and have been in and out of mental institutions the most in the last 10 years. I was diagnosed in 2003. Funny, I know, but what else is new?
AA and NA are programs of complete abstinence. So, today I am a drug free, smoke free, alcohol free, and caffeine free. I took one generic Chantix pill today, but I haven’t taken any of my other medications. I take 1 for stroke prevention, 2 for after stroke relief, 1 for cholesterol, 1 for frequent urination (incontinence), and 1 for schizophrenia. I asked my APN for her opinion, and I am waiting to hear back.
What does all this have to do with the right thing to do? Everything.
I put my family first and try to make the world a better place for you and me. I do it by being brutally honest with the world around me and demand answers, instead of saying that’s the way it is or worse yet saying it’s all good, even if it is. We kill everything in sight even if it is just from long term suicide called death of old age. So, it’s all good and there is nothing to complain about really gets under my skin. So, I go after everything I am worried or concerned about for my family’s welfare.
I share my ideas for world improvement. You can find them by going to any of my websites. I try to stay healthy. I go to AA and NA meetings. I eat enough. I exercise by walking a lot. I get a good night’s rest unless there is a reason to be up all night. My example is a righteous one and I hope my son sees it, and I think he does. I say my prayers.
So, what is the right thing to do? I don’t know for sure, but I hope I am doing it. My life keeps getting better and I hope it continues to do so. And if I were to see what I said, I think it is one word. Hope.
In faith — love always,
Bob
